justonezero | The World Overflow

Then for now... lap? Or laying down?

Get on my lap, Yoshi.

[ he nuzzles yoshi’s forehead with his own before withdrawing his arm to shift back toward the headrest. his arms open for the other boy once he’s settled back against the pile of pillows ]

Mm.

[He rolls onto his front so he can get up - crawl over to Deto, straddling him so he can take him in hand and slide down onto him, giving a soft moan. Too tired to do much other than melt into Deto's arms, but still so very sensitive.]

[ he watches the entire process even when the initial electric breach makes his eyes flutter, hissed breath caught between his teeth. as yoshi melts into him, it feels like he’s melting, too, inside. his heart overflows with affection for the boy in his arms, held close, held snug ]

… Thanks - for giving me everything.

...Eh? What do you mean...?

[Has he given Deto anything? ...It feels like Deto's the one who's given him so, so much.]

You trust me to take care of you. [ his heart, his body, his tears ] And you do your best to take care of me.

And we can talk like this - about anything. That’s pretty rare.

Is it...?

[He genuinely has no idea - never got nearly close enough to anyone else to find out.

He mulls it over for a moment, resting his head on Deto's shoulder.]

...It just sounds like a list of things I should be thanking you for. ...I don't think anyone else would have been interested in listening to what I had to say.

[They'd think he was weird. Someone unnerving, someone to avoid. But Deto never seemed to think that, not even once.]

You can if you want? [ he says it lightly ] But it’s not a contest - or some sort of exclusive skill only one of us can use at a time. We’re partners.

For the record, I’m always interested in what you have to say.

Mm... maybe it isn't. But...

It just feels like I haven't done enough.

[Not that he knows what's "enough," either.]

Hm. [ he rubs yoshi’s back in little soothing motions ] … Like… what you think I want? Or… do you mean what you want to do for me?

Not sure. ...Both, I guess?

I always tried to help people... find the things they'd like so I could give it to them. But I don't know what to do when all I know you like is me.

[Can it really count as doing anything just by existing...?]

That’s not all. There’s baseball, food, napping… But…

[ the weight of yoshi in his arms, in his lap - comfortable and warm. it really does feel like he has everything he could ever want right here. he presses a kiss to the top of yoshi’s head ]

Everything is better with you there. So just stay - with me. [ preferably right here, but that’s unrealistic ] Today felt like you were giving me a lot though. Rotating through the outfits, letting me touch you wherever - and however I wanted. Uh. Tasting me.

But I already wanted to do those things for myself, too?

[SURELY THAT CAN'T COUNT???]

[ he would hope that yoshi wanted those things, too?! ]

Shouldn’t that count for extra then?

-Eh? B-but...

It definitely counts for extra. Because I’m that much happier knowing we share these wants.

[ he wants to kiss the protests off yoshi’s lips, but he knows that won’t help ]

But - if you think you need to do more, then take your time figuring things out. No rush, yeah?

But then I'm going to fall behind...

[Whining into his shoulder.]

[ he knows he’s lost when even the whining is cute… ]

Behind who?

Behind you? You've had to put up with some pretty unpleasant stuff for my sake...

It doesn't feel fair to you.

If you’re behind, then it’s just by a single step because I’d never let you fall far.

[ not by choice ]

I… haven’t put up with anything. I feel pretty lucky, actually. [ he tilts yoshi’s head up and kisses him softly ] I fell in love - and with a boy no less. And, somehow, he loves me back. I… Yoshi, there’s no part of you that I think is ugly or unpleasant.

I can’t name a single part.

[He meets that kiss easily, though once they part again his expression remains troubled.]

...Not just because it's me or anything. [Though... while it's improved, his opinion of himself is still lacking.]

...You've had to guide me through a lot of difficult things. Like when I lost my memories... even when I got them back.

You always come to my side to keep me steady. ...But I don't think I've ever been able to do anything like that for you.

[ oh - maybe he didn’t make it clear enough? he should’ve… ]

No, sorry, that’s on me for not - uh, letting you know. More often. I think ‘cause you just make everything better for me, so… there’s almost no chance to really… dwell on my worries?

You’re the one who keeps me steady all the time. From our first conversation, actually. You’re the one who helped me level up. If I’m injured, you heal me right away. If I want to talk about anything at all, you’re there. You make this world bearable when it would just be lonely - and terrifying, honestly. The scale of everything we’re dealing with is - insane.

[ he tries not to think about it too much. he’s not made to be more than what he is - just a guy, nothing profound ]

I should have said. But you make things better for me in more ways than you know, Yoshi. And I would say the same even if I wasn’t in love with you.

[Judging by the way his eyes widen, Yoshi had no idea.]

I--

I what...?

[His instinct is to disbelieve. To assume Deto is exaggerating, too biased to say any different.

He... really did all that...?]

So earlier when I thanked you for giving me everything… Well. [ he really does mean everything ] I’ll try to do better. It’s important that you know. Don’t - don’t let me take you for granted.

[Oh. He really did so much, without even realizing...

...

This time it's Yoshi who leans in to kiss Deto, soft and chaste and yet still lingering a moment longer than might be expected.]

...I don't feel taken for granted by you at all. Every time you look at me... I feel so much more special than I really am.

You're always cherishing me. I just... want to make sure to do the same for you. But I never knew how, so...

[His own words and actions felt so insignificant in comparison.]

...I love you, Akira. And... thank you for loving me, too.

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