The World Overflow

[justonezero]

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[justonezero]

...Eh? What do you mean...?

[Has he given Deto anything? ...It feels like Deto's the one who's given him so, so much.]

[deto]

You trust me to take care of you. [ his heart, his body, his tears ] And you do your best to take care of me.

And we can talk like this - about anything. That’s pretty rare.

[justonezero]

Is it...?

[He genuinely has no idea - never got nearly close enough to anyone else to find out.

He mulls it over for a moment, resting his head on Deto's shoulder.]

...It just sounds like a list of things I should be thanking you for. ...I don't think anyone else would have been interested in listening to what I had to say.

[They'd think he was weird. Someone unnerving, someone to avoid. But Deto never seemed to think that, not even once.]

[deto]

You can if you want? [ he says it lightly ] But it’s not a contest - or some sort of exclusive skill only one of us can use at a time. We’re partners.

For the record, I’m always interested in what you have to say.

[justonezero]

Mm... maybe it isn't. But...

It just feels like I haven't done enough.

[Not that he knows what's "enough," either.]

[deto]

Hm. [ he rubs yoshi’s back in little soothing motions ] … Like… what you think I want? Or… do you mean what you want to do for me?

[justonezero]

Not sure. ...Both, I guess?

I always tried to help people... find the things they'd like so I could give it to them. But I don't know what to do when all I know you like is me.

[Can it really count as doing anything just by existing...?]

[deto]

That’s not all. There’s baseball, food, napping… But…

[ the weight of yoshi in his arms, in his lap - comfortable and warm. it really does feel like he has everything he could ever want right here. he presses a kiss to the top of yoshi’s head ]

Everything is better with you there. So just stay - with me. [ preferably right here, but that’s unrealistic ] Today felt like you were giving me a lot though. Rotating through the outfits, letting me touch you wherever - and however I wanted. Uh. Tasting me.

[justonezero]

But I already wanted to do those things for myself, too?

[SURELY THAT CAN'T COUNT???]

[deto]

[ he would hope that yoshi wanted those things, too?! ]

Shouldn’t that count for extra then?

[justonezero]

-Eh? B-but...

[deto]

It definitely counts for extra. Because I’m that much happier knowing we share these wants.

[ he wants to kiss the protests off yoshi’s lips, but he knows that won’t help ]

But - if you think you need to do more, then take your time figuring things out. No rush, yeah?

[justonezero]

But then I'm going to fall behind...

[Whining into his shoulder.]

[deto]

[ he knows he’s lost when even the whining is cute… ]

Behind who?

[justonezero]

Behind you? You've had to put up with some pretty unpleasant stuff for my sake...

It doesn't feel fair to you.

[deto]

If you’re behind, then it’s just by a single step because I’d never let you fall far.

[ not by choice ]

I… haven’t put up with anything. I feel pretty lucky, actually. [ he tilts yoshi’s head up and kisses him softly ] I fell in love - and with a boy no less. And, somehow, he loves me back. I… Yoshi, there’s no part of you that I think is ugly or unpleasant.

I can’t name a single part.

[justonezero]

[He meets that kiss easily, though once they part again his expression remains troubled.]

...Not just because it's me or anything. [Though... while it's improved, his opinion of himself is still lacking.]

...You've had to guide me through a lot of difficult things. Like when I lost my memories... even when I got them back.

You always come to my side to keep me steady. ...But I don't think I've ever been able to do anything like that for you.

[deto]

[ oh - maybe he didn’t make it clear enough? he should’ve… ]

No, sorry, that’s on me for not - uh, letting you know. More often. I think ‘cause you just make everything better for me, so… there’s almost no chance to really… dwell on my worries?

You’re the one who keeps me steady all the time. From our first conversation, actually. You’re the one who helped me level up. If I’m injured, you heal me right away. If I want to talk about anything at all, you’re there. You make this world bearable when it would just be lonely - and terrifying, honestly. The scale of everything we’re dealing with is - insane.

[ he tries not to think about it too much. he’s not made to be more than what he is - just a guy, nothing profound ]

I should have said. But you make things better for me in more ways than you know, Yoshi. And I would say the same even if I wasn’t in love with you.

[justonezero]

[Judging by the way his eyes widen, Yoshi had no idea.]

I--

I what...?

[His instinct is to disbelieve. To assume Deto is exaggerating, too biased to say any different.

He... really did all that...?]

[deto]

So earlier when I thanked you for giving me everything… Well. [ he really does mean everything ] I’ll try to do better. It’s important that you know. Don’t - don’t let me take you for granted.

[justonezero]

[Oh. He really did so much, without even realizing...

...

This time it's Yoshi who leans in to kiss Deto, soft and chaste and yet still lingering a moment longer than might be expected.]

...I don't feel taken for granted by you at all. Every time you look at me... I feel so much more special than I really am.

You're always cherishing me. I just... want to make sure to do the same for you. But I never knew how, so...

[His own words and actions felt so insignificant in comparison.]

...I love you, Akira. And... thank you for loving me, too.

[deto]

[ the kiss lingers from both ends, deto reluctant to part from yoshi’s sweetness. he presses their foreheads together, as though by doing so yoshi will be able to know his thoughts, his feelings ]

Turns out you knew how just by being yourself. Next time…

[ he takes a shuddering breath, filled to the brim with overflowing affection ]

Next time, I’m going to make love to you, so you can feel it from head to toe how much I love every part of you.

[justonezero]

[He shivers pleasantly at the thought.]

...I'll pay closer attention next time. I don't want to miss noticing it again.

[Already a promise of next time... After so long without, how can a single boy make his heart feel so full?

...So full, he can't contain it any longer, leaning in for another kiss.]

[deto]

A little later - [ not late ] - is better than never?

[ he grants yoshi a kiss gladly. their lips slot together with a natural ease that seems innate; it’s easy, so easy to love yoshi ]

congrats on 300 tags of dumb boys on this post

[justonezero]

[It's just as easy to lean into that kiss, tilting his head the same way as always, for the best access, the closest they can get. Not quite chaste, but not quite heated either - warm and lazy and familiar, befitting a day off with the one he loves most.